Happy Post!

 So, although most of you already guessed. 

I'M PREGNANT.

I am in shock. I can't believe it.

After 5 long months, I finally have a baby growing in my tummy. 

I know for most women 5 months isn't a long time. And I know in the grand scheme of things it isn't. But it felt like a lifetime. When you want something so badly ANY time of waiting is like torture. Especially when it's a baby. I can totally empathize with anyone going through fertility issues now. I couldn't say that before going through this, so I think the waiting has made me a better person and friend. I am more sensitive to what others are going through. 

Through our 5 months of trying, I had many friends become pregnant and while I was thrilled for them, a little part of me always wondered "why not me? what's wrong with me?" and the jealousy was insane. So I totally get it if any of you aren't instantly happy for me, I know that you will get pregnant and I am constantly praying for you. Having issues with getting pregnant are incredibly emotionally draining, I know. But I PROMISE, the wait is worth it. When you finally get those 2 pink lines (or in my case a plus sign and 2 different 2 pink lines... yes, I took 3 test. I didn't believe it) it will all be worth. Knowing that you finally got what your heart has wanted for so long, it's the best feeling and I can't wait for you to experience it. 

Hazel is beyond thrilled. We called everyone and let her tell them by saying "I'm going to be a big sister!" Most people couldn't understand her, or they didn't want to guess wrong and then upset my feelings, so they asked me what she said and I said "Hazel's going to be a big sister!" She is so proud. She is telling everyone (which I'm totally okay with!) 

Right now she wants a baby brother. She is always hugging and kissing my belly and saying "my baby brother!" It melts my heart. 

She also said the other day that she wanted to share "her bed, her blanket, her toys, and her rope" with her baby brother. Any time she gets food she asks if she can share with "him." She is going to be the best big sister. It makes me so happy to see how excited she is. She keeps asking "is my baby brother grown up yet?" It's going to be a long 9 months!

Due date is December 15, 2013. 

So I'm almost 8 weeks. I know it's "too early" to tell people. But I read a quote that stuck with me and I believe it with all my heart. 

"The more people who know, the more who can pray." 
So please pray for my sweet baby in my tummy. 
We are overjoyed.