Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Two. years.

Oh. My. Gosh. I have been so busy with training & running the half marathon that H's birthday has snuck up on me! In 3 short days she will have been my sweetest baby for 2 WHOLE YEARS! How is that even possible? Wasn't I just in the hospital? Didn't we just bring her home from the hospital? I literally am BAFFLED by the fact that it has been 2 years. Those memories are so vivid in my head it literally feels like yesterday. She is SUCH a joy to be around. Literally makes me smile, laugh, sing, & dance every day! She is never critical of what I'm wearing or what the heck my hair is doing. She loves pajama/movie days. She would live outside if I would let her & she is the smartest little girl I've ever known. She has the best sense of humor of any child I have ever met & anyone who has ever met her picks up on her humor right away. She loves to make messes, but she also loves helping me clean. Her favorite thing is bath time with her daddy & her best bud, Callie. She was sent here to save me from myself. What more could you ask of a best friend?

All that I want for her in life is to be happy. We do everything we can to make sure she has the best life possible and I hope she looks back on her childhood and smiles. She is so incredibly loved by everyone who knows her and we couldn't ask for a better support group for her.

To my Hazel:
I love you precious angel. I hope you think I'm doing a good job! I'm doing the best I can for you! We were made for each other and I thank God every day for making me your mama.

Photo dump:

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Stay at home mom

If you have ever said or heard that being a stay at home mom is the easiest job in the world, I want you to come be me for a day. Seriously. I NEVER get sick days, vacation days, or weekends off. I don't get to go home after a long day at work and relax. I am on call 24/7. I thank God every single day that I have a partner in this because without my husband, I would lose it. Sure some days are wonderful & I can't get enough of my little lady! She is seriously an amazing God-sent child. She is my best friend! This rant has NOTHING to do with her! I wouldn't trade her for the world and I know most of you won't understand that. This is about the fact that I am never done with work. I would not trade all the money in the world for the time I have gotten to spend with my angel, being able to watch her grow & learn new things every day! But some days (like today) I just need a couple hours by myself. To not have to get water, change a diaper, watch a kid show, read a kid book, get any kind of food, entertain or teach for a couple hours. What a blessing that must be for those of you who get to go to work. I am not trying to sound ungrateful because I am incredibly blessed that I get to stay home with my baby- but as much as I love it some days I just need to vent (like everyone else.) and I refuse to feel guilty about it; or feel like I'm not a great mom. I am a great mom. I think that venting makes me a better mom. I can get all this off my chest so that I am not angry towards her. Let me just give you my day today:
-8 AM woke up.
8:10 AM- shower myself & Hazel.
8:25- get myself & Hazel dressed, teeth brushed, hair done
8:40- breakfast for Hazel & coffee for me.
9:00- put in a load of laundry
9:30- head out the door for the play ground (change diaper while there)
12- leave play ground- Hazel screaming and whining the whole way home because she is hungry and I forgot my money at home
12:15 get home, change diaper, clean her up from the play ground
12:30- make lunch (hazel still screaming bc she is hungry)
While hazel is eating I go change over the laundry & fold clothes
1:15 Hazel done with lunch so we go draw on the back deck to keep her entertained until nap time.
1:30 I go upstairs to get her bed ready for nap, turn on sound machine, & make sure her room is straightened up & change over laundry/fold again
1:35 come back into the kitchen to find that Hazel has dumped the ENTIRE BOTTLE of powdered creamer in the floor, rolled in it, eaten some, and covered Callie and the ENTIRE kitchen in it
1:38- try not to scream at the top of my lungs at my (almost) 2 year old
1:40 take a couple deep breaths.... Put Hazel in time out (she is screaming again)
1:41- start cleaning up the creamer & realize that is is practically glued to the floor because Hazel had somehow wet it & stuck it to the floor.
1:45 get all the dry part swept up & realize that I had broken the swiffer so I have no way to get up the sticky gooey mess; my entire kitchen.
1:46 get a wet wash rag & get on my hands & hurt knee and scrape the sticky mess off of everything (hazel still screaming in time out), get it all cleaned up.
1:50 get her dressed, diaper change, bottle made for nap (still crying & saying sorry, sorry sorry about 68486263 times)
2:00- put her down for her nap.
2:01- walk back downstairs and look at the toys that have exploded in the living room & the dishes which seemed to have multiplied in the sink
2:05- sit on the sofa & right this blog.

That's right... My house is still a mess & I am SO incredibly overwhelmed that I have decided that I deserve a nap... So that is what I'm going to do. The dirty dishes & toys can wait. There is only so much I can handle at once

Until next time
-Mrs. K Scott

Sunday, March 18, 2012

I did it!!

I achieved my goal of finishing a half marathon. I am so so so happy I did it! One of the biggest accomplishments I've done this far into my life and I am so thankful to have done it. And I just have to say that I have the best friends ever, who woke up before 7 the day after St. Patrick's Day in order to come cheer me on!!! Thank you SO much Katherine, Aimee, Bryan, & my sweet husband, Jonathan for battling traffic and for taking a whole morning out of your busy weekend schedules just for me! And thank you to everyone who helped support me along the way, especially my sister, Katie, who inspired me to start running in the first place! I had WAY too many doubts and I am so thankful for encouraging and up-lifting friends and family, especially Hannah & Bailey! I could always text either of you when i was having my doubts and you guys knew just what to say!

I finished running 13.1 miles in 2 hours and 47 minutes! That is a GREAT time in my eyes! My knee really starting hurting at mile 9 & I think I pulled something :( its not feeling good at all right now & my husband just ran to the store to get things to hopefully help it!

I just can finally take a deep breath and relax at the fact that I don't have to run tomorrow!!! That is a great feeling! Haha I'm sure I'm going to be itching to get back out there in a week and I cannot wait until The Color Run Atlanta in 2 weeks- but for now I want to relax. Anyone who has ever ran the Publix marathon or half marathon told me how incredibly hilly the course is and man, they were NOT exaggerating! It was the single most hilliest course I have ever run and I am VERY proud of my time! My average mile was 13 minutes and I think that is great! I can't wait to do another one :-)

Monday, March 5, 2012

13.1

I am running 13.1 miles on March 18, 2012. That is 13 days from today. 13 point 1 miles. Holy cow. The farthest I've run is a 15K (which is 9.3 miles) and I thought I was going to die. Thank goodness I'm in much better shape now. My biggest fear is not finishing. You have to at least keep a 15 minute per mile pace. They have a group of people who will be maintaining that speed the entire race- if you fall behind them then you can't run on the road anymore & have to use the sidewalk. Which means you can still finish- just not on the road. My goal is keeping around 11 minutes per mile. I think is I'll be comfortable with that. I hope. I am terrified to say the least. This has been a *constant* goal of mine since Hazel was born 2 years ago. I have talked about it, dreamt about it, & thought about it for 2 years constantly and now my dream is about to become a reality. But only if I finish. I can't imagine my disappointment and heart ache if I don't finish. So to put it simply, I don't care if I am crawling with the most intense cramps of my life: I will finish this race. I will cross the finish line with a smile on my face! I can't wait for that feeling of accomplishment. I will have accomplished my dream! But then what? I am totally not ready for a full marathon and right now I don't even have the desire to run that far. I think 13.1 will be my farthest running distance. I would love to get more into triathlons. I need a road bike to make that happen but I think that would be so fun. Just for a change of pace. I love running, don't get me wrong. But I think 6 miles is when I am feeling my best and I'm not overly tired. 6 miles is comfortable for me. I will be more than doubling that in 13 days.

To say the least, it is constantly on my mind and will be until I cross the finish line. So I probably won't be blogging much until then because I seriously doubt you guys want to read about how anxious, nervous, excited, and worried I am!