If you have ever said or heard that being a stay at home mom is the easiest job in the world, I want you to come be me for a day. Seriously. I NEVER get sick days, vacation days, or weekends off. I don't get to go home after a long day at work and relax. I am on call 24/7. I thank God every single day that I have a partner in this because without my husband, I would lose it. Sure some days are wonderful & I can't get enough of my little lady! She is seriously an amazing God-sent child. She is my best friend! This rant has NOTHING to do with her! I wouldn't trade her for the world and I know most of you won't understand that. This is about the fact that I am never done with work. I would not trade all the money in the world for the time I have gotten to spend with my angel, being able to watch her grow & learn new things every day! But some days (like today) I just need a couple hours by myself. To not have to get water, change a diaper, watch a kid show, read a kid book, get any kind of food, entertain or teach for a couple hours. What a blessing that must be for those of you who get to go to work. I am not trying to sound ungrateful because I am incredibly blessed that I get to stay home with my baby- but as much as I love it some days I just need to vent (like everyone else.) and I refuse to feel guilty about it; or feel like I'm not a great mom. I am a great mom. I think that venting makes me a better mom. I can get all this off my chest so that I am not angry towards her. Let me just give you my day today:
-8 AM woke up.
8:10 AM- shower myself & Hazel.
8:25- get myself & Hazel dressed, teeth brushed, hair done
8:40- breakfast for Hazel & coffee for me.
9:00- put in a load of laundry
9:30- head out the door for the play ground (change diaper while there)
12- leave play ground- Hazel screaming and whining the whole way home because she is hungry and I forgot my money at home
12:15 get home, change diaper, clean her up from the play ground
12:30- make lunch (hazel still screaming bc she is hungry)
While hazel is eating I go change over the laundry & fold clothes
1:15 Hazel done with lunch so we go draw on the back deck to keep her entertained until nap time.
1:30 I go upstairs to get her bed ready for nap, turn on sound machine, & make sure her room is straightened up & change over laundry/fold again
1:35 come back into the kitchen to find that Hazel has dumped the ENTIRE BOTTLE of powdered creamer in the floor, rolled in it, eaten some, and covered Callie and the ENTIRE kitchen in it
1:38- try not to scream at the top of my lungs at my (almost) 2 year old
1:40 take a couple deep breaths.... Put Hazel in time out (she is screaming again)
1:41- start cleaning up the creamer & realize that is is practically glued to the floor because Hazel had somehow wet it & stuck it to the floor.
1:45 get all the dry part swept up & realize that I had broken the swiffer so I have no way to get up the sticky gooey mess; my entire kitchen.
1:46 get a wet wash rag & get on my hands & hurt knee and scrape the sticky mess off of everything (hazel still screaming in time out), get it all cleaned up.
1:50 get her dressed, diaper change, bottle made for nap (still crying & saying sorry, sorry sorry about 68486263 times)
2:00- put her down for her nap.
2:01- walk back downstairs and look at the toys that have exploded in the living room & the dishes which seemed to have multiplied in the sink
2:05- sit on the sofa & right this blog.
That's right... My house is still a mess & I am SO incredibly overwhelmed that I have decided that I deserve a nap... So that is what I'm going to do. The dirty dishes & toys can wait. There is only so much I can handle at once
Until next time
-Mrs. K Scott