Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Pregnancy Rant

Why is it that when someone gets pregnant people think they can say whatever they want to you?

Here is a couple of examples:

1. Are you sure there isn't 2 in there? You're huge! 
-Uhh. What? What if I walked up to you and said "are you sure you're NOT pregnant? Because your huge and have NO human growing inside you. "

2. You are just being overly sensitive and irrational. I can't even talk to you about this. 
-Um. Just because I'm pregnant doesn't mean that I don't have feelings and thoughts that are my own. This happens pretty much ANY time I express a little bit of emotion that is disagreeing with the person I am talking to. I can still have opinions and thoughts. Just because I am pregnant doesn't mean that my feelings don't count anymore. I am VERY sick and tired of this one. 

3. Oh! Your Facebook picture made you look like you were all belly. 
-Isn't it a known thing that EVERYONE puts the most flattering picture of themselves as their profile picture? What if I went up to someone and was like "oh you looked MUCH skinnier in your Facebook picture than you do right now." Give me a freaking break. And go back to number 2... Just because I am pregnant doesn't mean I don't have feelings.

I am very, very tired of my feelings not counting anymore just because I'm growing a human. 

So the next time you see a pregnant lady, tell her she looks radiant and beautiful. I'm sure she has enough insecurities without people saying EXACTLY what's on their mind. For goodness sake, filter yourselves people and stop judging the pregnant ladies. They are assisting God in a miracle... 

I am so, so thankful that I have my husband to listen to me vent about all this and doesn't call me crazy or that I'm just being irrational because I'm pregnant. Without him, I would be as irrational as some people claim I am. 

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Tummy Tuesday Week 25

Well as if this pregnancy wasn't already flying by, now they changed my due date up by over a week and she will be here even soon! 

Don't blink!!

How far long?: 25 weeks and 3 days.

Size of the baby?: An eggplant. 9.2 inches and 2 lbs. No wonder my belly feels so heavy!

Sleep?: Can't get enough! I have no issues sleeping.

Best moment of this week?: I just feel really good. I feel pretty and I feel like I'm doing really well with being healthy this pregnancy. Even though I am slower and weaker, I am still trying really hard in the gym and it makes me feel good about myself! I love, love, love her kicks and rolls. She is so active! Oh and my mom taking me shopping to get new maternity shirts! I was having to tug all my old shirts down because they were long enough and I'm very thankful that she took me shopping.

Miss anything?: Nope.

Movement?: All the time! 

Food Cravings?: I want to (and do) put Tabasco on just about everything. I can't get enough of the spice! 

Morning Sickness?: None.

Gender?: Girl :)

Bed Rest?: None.

Limitations?: Bending over is pretty difficult. But nothing else really. 

Pregnancy Symptoms?: Achy back and super hormonal.

Wedding Rings?: Still on!

Looking forward to?: Seeing her sweet little face!!! I just am so excited to meet her!

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

I have been slacking.

This month, I have been to the gym maybe 3 times? I was going 4-5 times a week but then... well, life happened. 

First, it was Hazel. She woke up one night screaming, so Jonathan and I rushed in there because she rarely does that and she was COVERED in throw up. Her and her bed. It was awful. Girlfriend is rarely sick and has only thrown up twice in her life so I don't have much experience. 

I put her in the tub and cleaned her off while Jonathan cleaned the carpet in her room and took all her bedding off. It was RANK. The next morning when I threw it in the washing machine, it took all I had not to puke myself. Well, the next day she was acting normal and happy and eating well so I was like "okay, maybe she just ate something that didn't sit well in her stomach." She was whining about being bored and it was nice day so we headed to Subway to get lunch then head to the playground. We got to Subway at 12:15, prime lunch time there. We were in line, next to pay, and she said "mom, I need to go tee-tee!" I said "okay honey, just hold it for one second while mommy pays then we will go before we leave." Before I could even get the words out of my mouth she starts throwing up everywhere. In the middle of Subway, in the line where people are ordering there lunch. She threw up strawberry milk and scrambled eggs (her breakfast). TMI? Oh well. It took all I had to rush her to the bathroom and not throw up myself. I don't do well with throw up. Add being pregnant and it was just awful. Poor angel had thrown up all over herself and the floor. Thankfully, the staff was very nice and cleaned it up while I got her cleaned up, then I paid and we left while I apologized to everyone in the restaurant. She was SO UPSET that we couldn't go to the playground and cried the whole way home. Then, she started getting better and didn't throw up again.

The next day, I started feeling "off." I am pregnant so I was hoping it was just that. The whole next week I had stomach issues. It was awful and I felt drained of all energy. Well, we finally got better and Jonathan seemed fine so I went to the gym on Tuesday and it completely wore me out. I just felt drained. So I waited a couple more days. Then Jonathan comes home and says he's sick. So he's spent the last couple days in bed. 

I really hope this whole sickness is behind us and we can get back to normal. 

Plus Hazel started preschool last week and I started "work."

Our church is pretty amazing. We go to a big church, so they have a preschool for all their staff and weekday volunteers. I just started as a weekday volunteer. Basically, I get all the classrooms ready for the Sunday services. And Hazel gets preschool for free. Which around here is VERY expensive. We are so blessed to have this opportunity. We couldn't afford to send her to 3 year old preschool otherwise, so it's an amazing opportunity for her to be able to learn and be with other people other than me during the day. She is doing amazing so far. She loves it and wants to go everyday. She goes from around 8:45-1:30. She eats lunch there. That is a big change from being home with me 24-7. And she has been doing awesome. I think it really helps that it's at our church and she is very comfortable there. Her teachers are amazing and they are both retired teachers. They really seem to care about her and understand that this is her first experience in a school setting so they are being very patient with her. She comes home every Tuesday and Thursday so excited and singing new songs and telling me all about what she learned. I can't wait to see how much she's learned by the end of the year! Plus after Ellie is born (hopefully) she will be able to go into the newborn room while I work (10 feet away) and Hazel will still be able to go to school after that and have some independence. As of right now they don't have any room in the newborn room so I'm really praying something opens up. I also love the women I work with. They are wonderful and it's amazing to have adult conversation and a break from the monotony of being a stay at home mom. It gives us both something to look forward to. 

So, back to the point of this both. HOLY TANGENT, batman. 

I need to get back into the routine of working out. It is best for me and Elouise and Hazel LOVES the gym and misses it big time. So starting today, we will get back into a routine. With Jonathan working so much overtime, I think the best thing is for me to go during the day so that by the time he gets home (around 8), I can have dinner ready and waiting instead of just starting it. 

Are you guys done reading my rambling?? That's pregnancy brain for ya. I have way too many things running through my head right now! I need my gym time back so that I can have my "think time" too (without Dora telling me what to do in the background.)

Monday, August 19, 2013

I have no idea when I'm due to have this baby.

I know that due dates are really just estimates. They aren't exact, the baby could come at any time.

I am a planner. I like to have everything planned out weeks and months before hand so that when the day comes I'm not stressing. 

I am stressing.

Today I went to my doctor appointment and she was saying that I am 24 weeks and a couple days. According to my due date that we had set at my first appointment I should only be 23 weeks and 1 day. Did it change when we had my ultrasound and they just forgot to tell me? At my very first appointment, I had an ultrasound and they moved my due date from December 7th to December 15th because Elouise was measuring small. I knew this wouldn't last because I am destined to have big babies. Jonathan was 9 pounds 6 oz, I was 10 pounds 6 oz, Hazel (my first baby) was 9 pounds 4 oz. So I knew Elouise measuring "small" wasn't right. So I guess my due date is now December 7th (again) and that I am 24 weeks and 2 days. 

Then she measured my belly and my belly is measuring 25 weeks. Who knows when I'm going to have this baby? I will be ready December 1st. 

Let's move on to the Bump Date since I didn't update last week. Hazel started preschool and I started "work" so it was a crazy week! I'll post about preschool later this week. She's doing great!

How far along?: Who knows? 23-25 weeks! haha! I'm going to stay 24 weeks and 2 days (if my due date is December 7th).

Size of baby?: Egg-plant. 9 inches and 1.7 pounds! Wow little baby!! Almost 2 pounds!! :) Seems so big!

Sleep?: Sleep is amazing. I can't get enough. I am tired a lot. I usually get up to pee once a night but other than that I sleep great.

Best moment of this week?: Feeling her kick is something I will never get used to. It's so amazing. I love it! Jonathan feels her a lot and I can actually SEE when she kicks my stomach. 

Miss anything?: Nope.

Movement?: Yes! She is very active!

Food cravings?: Nothing really. Not as strong as in the beginning. I guess I would say red meat. I can't get enough!

Morning sickness?: Nope.

Gender?: Little precious girl :)

Bed Rest?: No

Limitations?: Nothing really. Bending over is hard.

Pregnancy Symptoms?: My right hip is really hurting by the end of the day. My doctor said it was the ligaments stretching to get ready for delivery and just to be care if I'm lifting Hazel or anything heavy and I don't need to lift anything too heavy because it might pop my hip out of place but she said it was normal and to just put a pillow between my legs when I sleep (which I already do) to alleviate the pressure. Still so hairy and I have a little bit of acne but nothing unbearable. 

Wedding rings?: Still on and loose. 

Looking forward to?: The fall! All the cold weather, pumpkin flavored everything, windows open, lower electricity bill, and all the holidays! I can't wait!

Weight Gain?: 13.4 pounds. Up 3 pounds since last appt (4 weeks ago). It is normal to gain 1 pound per week till the end so  I am feeling good about that number! I have around 16 more weeks so if I average 1 pound per week till I'm done my total weight gain will be 29.4 pounds and that would be amazing!

This is a comparison of 14 weeks and 23 weeks 

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Tummy Tuesday. 21 Weeks

My sweet little Elouise. It is amazing the love that I feel for her already. Every little flip and every little kick or punch. My heart melts. 

How far long?: 21 weeks 2 days.

Size of the baby?: The app says she is 8 inches and 1 pound. I'm sure Ellie weighs more than that because she was weighing 11 ounces at 19 weeks so I'm sure she's over a pound now. 

Sleep?: Still sleeping great. I wake up usually once a night to pee but I go back to sleep. I've learned to drink all my water early in the day instead of just chugging after dinner. I try to drink at least a gallon a day (if not more.)

Best moment of the week?: Ellie has started to really kick me this week and Jonathan got to feel her on Friday! She kicked him about 5 times, it was the most amazing feeling and seeing his eyes light up was just amazing. Yesterday she was so active and she went on kicking sprees for about 5 minutes at a time. It was the most incredible thing. It also looks like she will be just as active as her sister!

Miss anything?: No.

Movement?: Yes, she is a very active girl! We have moved from flutters to real kicks and punches! 

Food cravings?: I finally got my Hibachi!! It was amazing. I want it again. 

Morning Sickness?: When I don't eat a good dinner or if I eat too early then I feel sick in the morning but once I eat it goes away.

Gender?: I get another little princess! :)
Bed Rest?: No.

Limitations?: Still can't really bend over very well. But other than that I am completely fine.

Pregnancy Symptoms?: I am chewbacca.

My lower back hurts when I sit or stand too long. And the heart burn is starting to set in.

Wedding Rings?: Still on and roomy.

Looking forward to?: The fall! I am over this heat and sweating all the time. 

Friday, August 2, 2013

In a glass case of emotion.

Well, we had officially reached the point in my pregnancy where Sane KellyAnne leaves and she is replaced with Crazy, Crying KellyAnne. 

Also, fun fact about me. I am the world's worst crier.
Let's talk about this so you can know what my husband has to deal with from 20+ weeks. 

Yesterday morning I was looking at the Humane Society website to look at puppies. I know that we can't get on right now but we're going to in a couple weeks. But I like to torture myself and look and fall in love and then get disappointed when the puppy gets adopted. 

Cue cutest puppy I've ever seen (besides my Callie)

Well, I guilt tripped Jonathan into it and he agreed we could go look on Saturday and possibly get him. A couple hours later I went back to admire him and his picture was gone. I panicked. I called and he had been adopted that day. 

Cue the water works. I cried and cried and cried like you would not believe. I HAVE NEVER EVEN SEEN THIS PUPPY IN PERSON and I was so heart broken. 

Like worse than this.

Well, I recovered, I thought. And for lunch I was eating a cheese and egg quesadilla and I just busted out crying. FOR.NO.REASON. Literally. So then I texted Jonathan and said that I was a crazy person and I needed to be put in a loony bin because I couldn't stop crying. This lasted for about an hour then I calmed down. 

I spent most of yesterday crying. For nothing. Just because the tears were coming and I felt sad. It was the strangest thing. In my head I thought "why in the world am I crying? This is so strange. I need to stop crying." But my body was all "you need to cry until you had no more tears." So that's what I did. 

Then last night we had a wonderful dinner that I cooked. Cooking helps calm me. I love taking my time and making a great dinner. 

After dinner, I turned into a Loony Toon again. Jonathan had put Hazel to bed and came in and I was crying. He is very attentive when I cry and he was very patient. We've been through this before. When this happens there is nothing you can do or say to make me stop so he just held me and let me cry. When I finally stopped, I busted out laughing. He laughed with me and said "well, it's finally getting real!" Meaning that me crying is just part of my pregnancy experience and it'll be this way for another 4 months.

For some reason when I'm pregnant I just need a good, hard cry every once in a while. Even when nothing has changed. Even when my life is wonderful. 

Today, I feel better but I still feel like I could cry at any second. One wrong comment, one wrong tone, one sad commercial and it could all be over.