Tuesday, June 19, 2012
I think I have a constant love/hate relationship with working out. I am the type of person that if I am doing something I am doing it 100%. So when I take "one" day off and slack and eat crap.... then it turns into a month. I HATE, HATE, HATE this endless cycle I seem to be on. It's like as soon as I start to see some results and am actually feeling good about my body, then I take "one day" off and then I find myself a month later having to start all over. Well that's where I am right now. Starting over. AGAIN.
I refuse to beat myself and think of myself as a failure. I have very good selfish esteem and I KNOW that I can do anything I've put my mind to. I've proven it to myself countless times. But for some reason I can't be the type of person that works out 3-4 times a week. I have to do SOMETHING, not matter how big or small EVERY day... or I fall back into my old, lazy habits. I am so sick of not feeling good about myself and not wanting to go shop because I hate the way clothes fit. I had gotten to a really good place in my life and my body about a month ago and I was feeling great - now a month later I am "fat" again. Well this week I have decided to do something about it. Yesterday I ran/walked 3 miles and did 30 lunges in my drive-way (all while H was there. She thought it was funny that mommy was in pain). Today I ran 2 miles and did 100 jumping jacks, 50 crunches, and 50 squats. My butt is not happy with me, but maybe in a couple weeks I'll be happy with my butt?
What I really need is a support system and people to keep me on track. My husband is really great at this but sometimes I think he's worried to say "hey- you need to go workout" because more than likely it would hurt my feelings coming from him. I need other people to help me stay on track. Especially on the weekends, which is when I slack the most. So can you help me? I'd love to have your help.
Until Next Time
-Mrs. K. Scott