These past two weekends have been hard for me eating wise. Last weekend, we helped friends move on Saturday so we were not home all day which means eating out, which means bad choices. I can't resist. I'm like a drug addict. It's gross.
This past weekend (Easter weekend), we had Hazel's birthday party on Saturday which means hot dogs and hamburgers followed by the most amazing Strawberry Cake that I've ever tasted. The next day was Sunday so that means candy.
I have been beating myself up over it. I knew I did bad and I was feeling down for myself, so you know what I did? Yesterday, I ate the rest of the cake AND some candy. There is so explanation. I didn't CRAVE it... I just wanted it and it was there.
Therefore, I am going to save Hazel a small pile of candy but the rest of it is leaving this house. I clearly can't have the temptation in my house because I'm like a crack addict.
Last night, something huge happened. I realized that the rest of my life I'm not going to go without birthday cake or candy. Those things are GOING to be in my life. It is MY responsibility to say NO to them. I don't need a huge piece of cake followed by 4 Reese's cups. BUT, I CAN have a small piece of cake and be happy with that. I have been busting my butt and I'm not ready to give up now. Sure, I've had some set-backs but I'm only human. I can't deny my child her Easter candy just because I have no self control. I have to learn how to say no...
Honestly, I've had so much candy and sweets these past couple of days that the smell of it is gross. That's how you know you've had too much. :)
For a while, we have no more distractions (holidays, birthdays, etc.)... So I'm ready to get back on track. This journey is just as much mental as it is physical. I can do the physical part... I just need to overcome the mental part.
I am tired of making excuses. I'm going to do this.
Now I'm off to purge my house of all the junk food!
(Jk I'm throwing it out!)
Have a fantastic Tuesday!