Happy, Happy, Happy

So I woke up feeling good about myself and decided to jump I didn't actually jump. I got naked and stepped on the scale. I honestly wasn't expecting a big loss because of how I had cheese dip and hot wings on Saturday and Sunday night. But I knew that I kicked my own butt yesterday and sweated enough to lose a little so I just wanted to see. Plus I have problems with patience. 

Well I'm happy I did. I loss 2.8 pounds since last Wednesday!! Ya'll... this is a big deal to me. I haven't seen 210's since college. Since before I got pregnant....Almost 4 years ago. I usually get to 220 and then stop... I have done that for 2 years. I saw this on My Fitness Pal and it really hit home with me. 

Start at the bottom of the second pic and work your way up.

I started My Fitness Pal on December 5, 2011 but I had been "trying to get healthy" for about 8 months before this.

Because you see, I feel like I've been battling my weight for 2 years. I talk about it all the time. I think about it all the time... but I had gotten no where. The problem was I wasn't willing to change my diet. I thought that because I was busting my butt running and with Jillian that I could eat whatever I wanted. I was so wrong. This time something clicked. I am tired of working out so hard and not seeing results. So I take it meal by meal. I make good choices that I know will bring me closer to my goal. I don't have cheat meals every day or every week. And my cheat meals don't turn into days/weeks/months. 

 I had never pushed through and get to see that 1. I know 218 is still big for a lot of you but I haven't seen that number in almost 4 years. I have been "getting healthy" for almost 2 years and I have never gotten this low. I have never been so consistent with logging my calories. Today was 35 days that I have logged AND COMPLETED my entries. The good and the bad. I haven't just ignored it like in the past. I pushed through and even though I knew ya'll would see what I ate.... I owned up to it. 

 

I saw this on Pinterest. It is so true. I have been eating so much better these past 4 weeks than I have in all my life. Sure I've had my slip-ups but the important thing is I moved on. I didn't beat myself up. I enjoyed them while they lasted and I knew that the next meal I would make better choices. 

When I got pregnant with Hazel I was around 210-215... I can't wait to bust past that and get to my goal weight. Only 18 more pounds! How is that possible? Now I've always said that once I got to 200 we'd see how I felt and if I need to go down to 190 then that would be my next goal. But right now my goal is 200. From there we'll take it 10 pounds at a time. I'm not willing to starve myself. I want to eat healthy foods and work out consistently. I don't want for the rest of my life me worried about a number on the scale. I want to happy. I want to healthy. And I want to rock any outfit I choose. 

Also... just wanted to clarify. I have always hidden my weight. Not told anyone. I'm not embarassed anymore because I know the scale will keep going down. That is why I publish my actual weight. You can judge me all you want but I am proud of that number because just 4 weeks ago it was 12 pounds more than it is today. I am proud of my hard-work.